ohh man... my aching head.

I got to start taking ali's advice - more often then not he knows what hes talking about,

aur mein jo hoon, jazbaat mein maara jaata hoon.

To my brothers in arms,

and American Pie, and forgotten verses, and my solo verse :)

To ali telling me to straighten up,

to never knowing when to stop,

and knowing that not knowing is allright, because theres always someone there,

to hold your hand and get you up that one last curve,

even when your insides are on the sidewalk,

and your brain is somewhere else.

To unrestrained nights,

and sunlight burning days

This is to my friends,

the ones who made me who i am,

the reason i can lie back and smile,

the reason im no longer afraid of tomorrow...

-- Dedicated to the Gang, on top of the Wardens Room.

I am the master, the guru, the ustaad, at being:

second best,

almost there,

runners up,

almost but not quite,

a great friend,

a confidante...

God gave me this ability.

He gave me the innate ability to help people with there problems.

To sort them out, to give them solutions if thats what there looking for, to just make them smile or laugh if thats what they need, or to point the finger and make them realize it was there fault, even if they allready know.

What never fails to amaze me, is that even though many of them know that my life is completely fucked up, those that dont soon find out, but time and time again - people come to me for advice, for help - and i dont mind, i play my role, things get better, and things move on.

But an interesting realization, in fact something that i just realized while writing this right now, is that as you help people, you loose them - many are in your life because they need your help, and when you get them past that stage they will be gone.

Maybe thats why, every time it happens, every time you spend all night piecinig together someone elses soul, you come away from it feeling, emptier then before - and just a little, sad.

This song reminds me of some amazing times, spent withmy friends, spent with my boys. This song here is posted for a particular boy of mine - always been there for me, ill always be there for him.



"My Grace is Gone" Dave Mathews Band

Neon shines through smoky eyes tonight,
It’s 2 am, I’m drunk again,
It’s heavy on my mind, it’s heavy on my mind.

I could never love again,
So much as I love you.
Where you end, where I begin,
Is like a river going through.

Take my heart, take my eyes,
Cause I’ll need them no more.
If never again they’ll fall upon,
The one I so adore.

Excuse me please, one more drink.
Could you make it strong,
Cause I don’t need to think.
She broke my heart,
My grace is gone.
Another drink and I’ll move on.

One drink to remember,
And another to forget.
How could I ever dream to find a love like this again?
One drink to remember, another to forget...

Excuse me please, one more drink.
Would you make it strong,
Cause I don’t need to think.
She broke my heart,
My grace is gone.
Another drink and I’ll move on.
One more drink and I’ll move on.

You think of things impossible,
Then the sun refuse to shine.
I woke with you beside me,
Your cold hand lay in mine.

Excuse me please, one more drink.
Could you make it strong,
Cause I don’t need to think.
She broke my heart,
My grace is gone.
Another drink and I’ll go...

Excuse me please, one more drink.
Could you make it strong,
Cause I don’t need to think.
She broke my heart,
my grace is gone.
Another drink and I’ll move on,
One more drink and I’ll move on.

One more drink my grace is gone.

Hello all.

ANNOUNCEMENTS:

Completely new look here, and since iv been playing around with some resolution settings (and because im on a widescreen myself) id love it if i could get some feedback here - on my screen the cherub doesnt interfere with the text - i need to know how it appears to y'all.

The kneeling cherub with the weight of its wings...

As for Visual Sensation - my photoblog - there have been some new additions after a LONG period of emptiness... which can be explained to Saman stealing my camera and whisking it off to austria of all places :p the pictures up now are not photographs but some of my artwork - some more recent stuff will be up soon as soon as i can scan them off the back of my notebook hehehe.

Enjoy!

ye world hei na world
iss mein do tarah ke log hote hein
aik, jo saari zindagi aik hi kaam karte rehte hein
aur doosre jo,
aik hi zindagi mein
saare kaam karte hein...


ye mein nahiye
who dono kehte they
aur kehte kya,
karte bhi they
aur aise karte they,
ke na jaise kissi ne kiya,
aur naa shaid karpaye ga.

-- Amitabh Bachan, "Bunti aur Bubbli"

*smile*