wow... its 10am, i normally dont wake up this early when iv just fallen asleep at 530am, but im waking up from an incredibly disturbing dream. First let me describe the scene. I was in my room at LUMS (which was single occupancy, or maybe my roomie just wasnt there) except my room at lums looked more like a room from an old haveli. Medium sized windows that opened up from the center, the wood painted green and red brick farsh. I wake up early in the morning to the noise of thousands of men yelling - the type of screams when blind rage is the cause. i look out my window to see the old city filled with mobs, attacking people - women, children - beating them to the ground. I go to the closest guard to find out that sectarian sunni vs shi'a violence has broken out all over the city of Lahore, no one except for the guards seems to be on my floor but i dont seem to notice that as anything odd. The mobs begin to stone the building... and climb the surrounding walls. The guards at the gate provide resistence at first but then step back to let them through - i can understand that, after all - this is a job to them - not a matter of life and death. Im looing out my window as all this happens, the first few men climb over, bearing oddly enough not guns in this gun laden country but knives and axes and tools used normally on the earth - a scene that reminded me somewhat of Hotel Rwanda. The first few men climb over, the next men come in waves, pouring in pushing up against each other. In moments a crowd of 20 or 30 men are inside, and as the guards step aside - they rush into LUMS - never into my building oddly enough, but disapearing into the rest of the campus to reek their havoc. I turn away from the window to find a girl in a hijab with an incredibly confident look in her eyes standing there in front of me... after this the dream morphed itself into only god knows what as dreams are aught to do - with trips to a shooting range to fire an old world war II germal pistol and a detour to hafiz center to buy someone else a cellphone while trying to get home. . .

10 am and all this has allready happened. . .

Extreme: Hole Hearted

Life's ambition occupies my time
Priorities confuse the mind
Happiness one step behind
This inner peace I've yet to find

Rivers flow into the sea
Yet even the sea is not so full of me
If I'm not blind why can't I see
That a circle can't fit
Where a square should be

There's a hole in my heart
That can only be filled by you
And this hole in my heart
Can't be filled with the things I do

Hole hearted
Hole hearted

This heart of stone is where I hide
These feet of clay kept warm inside
Day by day less satisfied
Not fade away before I die

Rivers flow into the sea
Yet even the sea is not so full of me
If I'm not blind why can't I see
That a circle can't fit
Where a square should be

There's a hole in my heart
That can only be filled by you
And this hole in my heart
Can't be filled with the things I do

There's a hole in my heart
That can only be filled by you
And this hole in my heart
Can't be filled with the things I do

Hole hearted
Hole hearted
Hole hearted
Hole hearted

haha wow the nets working fast today...

was just cleaning out my computer... finding things from ALL over and god knows how old... literally... i had to make a folder called "Random Texts" just to try to organize the mess... amongst it all this is some of what i found:

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing." -Adidas

A carved oak table tells a tale

Of times when kings and queens sipped wine from goblets gold

And the brave would lead their ladies from out the room to arbours cool

A time of valour, and legends born

A time when honour meant much more to a man than life

And the days knew only strife to tell right from wrong through lance and sword

Why, why, can we never be sure till we die

Or have killed for an answer

-- Unknown

And my personal favorite:

The following is an actual question given on a University ofWashington engineering mid-term. The answer was so "profound" that theProfessor shared it with colleagues, and the sharing obviously hasn'tceased...
Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) orEndothermic (absorbs heat)?
Most of the students wrote Proofs of theirbeliefs using Boyle's Law, (gas cools off when it expands and heatswhen it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrotethe following: "First, we need to know how the mass of Hell ischanging in time. So we need to know the rate that souls are movinginto Hell and the rate they are leaving. I think that we can safelyassume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, nosouls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let uslook at the different religions that exist in the world today. Some ofthese religions state that if you are not a member of their religion,you will go to Hell. Since there are more than one of these religionsand since people do not belong to more than one religion, we canproject that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as theyare, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increaseexponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume inHell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature andpressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand assouls are added. This gives two possibilities: 1. If Hell is expandingat a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then thetemperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaksloose. 2. Of course, if Hell is expanding at a rate faster than theincrease of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will dropuntil Hell freezes over. So which is it? If we accept the postulategiven to me by Teresa Banyan during my Freshman year, "...that it willbe a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you.", and take into accountthe fact that I still have not succeeded in having sexual relationswith her, then, #2 cannot be true, and thus I am sure that Hell isexothermic and will not freeze." This student received the only A.

-Unknown