I have come to the realization that writing songs is a process that involves wearing your soul on the outside. Whereas poetry (or in my case, more often then not prose), or artwork is kept private and released only to those people who you feel have the right over you - and anyone who you wish to shut out can be shutout at any moment, songs arent like that.

When you write a song - the purpose of the song, the reason for its entire existance - is to be shared with the world, with everyone and anyone who would be interested in listening. This then gives the writer of the song two options: either write about something that you feel absolutely nothing for - in which case what you write will invariably suck and will make you fake at the same time - or - write about what touches you, and prepare yourself to release your soul to the world - and it doesnt stop there - prepare for the barrage of questions that come from everyone who considers you their friend with abslute disregard to whether the feeling is mutual or not.

Its the questions - the people asking you things that you just dont want to answer - maybe not to them maybe not to anyone but yourself, maybe not even to yourself ; that are the killer. They put you off the words, they make you loose the emotions and the thoughts that made you write them in the first place.

I know im a question person - im always asking people what there thinking RIGHT NOW or what they meant when they wrote this or that (i can see all you people nodding out there with your knowing eyes... ill murder you when you sleep ;) but my biggest safegaurd is that i have ABSOLUTELY no problem - if people tell me that they just dont wanna tell me. Im comfortable with that, im comfortable like that.

AND.

I have a database final tomorrow, that i will fail.

AND THEN.

KARACHI YAY!!!