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Laugh, and the world laughs with you.
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth
Must borrow its mirth,
It has trouble enough of its own.


Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound
To a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.


Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go;
They want full measure
Of all your pleasure,
But they do not want your woe.


Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all;
There are none to decline
Your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.


Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by;
Succeed and give,
And it helps you live,
But it cannot help you die.


There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train;
But one by one
We must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Its always good to have dreams ;)

Nickelback Rockstar Lyrics

I'm through with standin' in line
at clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
and I'm never gonna win
this life hasn't turned out
quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
for ten plus me
--(So what you need)--

I need a a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
--(Been there done that)--

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

[CHORUS]
'Cause we all just wanna be a big rockstars and
Live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And well...

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
--(I'll have the quesadilla, ha-ha)--

I'm gonna dress my ass
with the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
we'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
that offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
from a Pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip --sync-- 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in Hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial, well

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

Artist: Cradle Of Filth Lyrics
Song: Nymphetamine Lyrics

Laid to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A "V" of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And though Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain....
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision

Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine

Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission

None better...
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.

Wicked with your charm
I'm circled like prey
Back in the forest
Were whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(keeping Sodom at at bay)

Fold to my arms
Hold their message away
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days

Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay

Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision

Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine

Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission

None better...
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.

Hey all... i doubt anyone even looks at this site anymore... but if you come here looking for updates the right place to look would be HERE - im in Cairo for a while so i decided to seperate the blogs a bit so ill be posting there from now on (or atleast until further notice).

Heard this line in a movie, fell in love with it. It falls perfectly in line with everything happening all over the world, including Pakistan:

"A people should not be afraid of their goverment. The governement should be afraid of its people"

-- V for Vandetta, Crazy Masked Guy

Very few people have gone far back enough to nitice, but the reason this blog actually started, four years ago in 2002 - was because of the increased tension in the palistinean / Israel situation. It was a place where not only could i express my voice but i where i could discuss my political and philosophical opinions with others and with the voices inside my head.

Along the years, i started college, i followed the issues less as i got involved in college life and the highs and lows that come with it - the blog well - it seemed to follow suit. It became diluted, and you can see that in the writing. In its final days - it became a place where i posted nothing but song lyrics and interesting quotes - and then finally it died.

Im sitting in front of the TV tuned into CNN. In the last week iv seen well coordinated bomb blasts rip through the transportation life support of India. Iv seen bomb blasts on my side of the border, in MY city, and i can feel it in my bones that things are going to get worse.

Now im watching Israel follow the actions of its big brother, as it decides to combine the terrorist organizations that exist within a country with the people at large of that country itself. It takes terrorist actions (which i in no way support) as an excuse to use its superior military power to bring an entire city to a standstill. It is confusing the actions of Hezbollah as the actions of the Army of Lebanon and is viewing it as a direct aggression by Lebanon. This is the same confusion that the United States twisted in its own favor by first entering Afghanistan and taking control of the country and then choosing to try the Mujahideen their not as Prisoners of War but as armed terrorists.

There can be absolutely no justification for bombing hospitals, open roadways, and the airport. I consider myself a moderate individual - and if the bombings that Hezbollah started had been returned through direct action by Israel by striking known Hezbollah targets - i could accept it as a country attempting to protect its borders. Not only that i would also accept that in todays modern warfar civilian casualties are almost necessary.

But to target very clearly CIVILIAN localities and to turn them into targets - there is no justification for acts of aggression such as this. Israels statement is that the bombings are to "pressurize" Hezbollah to give up their arms. Im not a political scientist, but does anyone think that their strategy is really going to work?

Very clearly - when Israel made the statement:
"We will put you back twenty years."
They were looking for much more then a precision strike on Hezbollah - they were looking for all out war.

Breaking News: Hezbollah has proclaimed these attacks by Israel as an invitation for open war. In reply they have accepted this invitation and have declared Open War against Israel.


In my heart i pray that God will give peace to all the men and women who have died today, and yesterday, and the day before. Ameen.

And we thought we were above all of this...

Sometimes i dont know how i did it...

And we thought we were above all that...

Crazy days, Crazy nights.

Wear it around your neck, like a razor blade, it cuts through you. Smell it, breath in deap, let it pervade your thoughts, let it become a part of you, let it become a part of your skin, let it kill you... from the inside out.

Let the rain hit you, let the steam rise from the ground, and let the thoughts from your mind leave you...from the inside out.

Stand in the sun, let the rays of light float through your invisible self. Let the nonexistence of your being become a reality as you throw no shadow. Let yourself disapear, from the inside out.

Lie in the snow, feel the cold reach the core of you. Your heart is stone, feel it crushed into thousands of pieces beneath the weight of your walls.

And smile, from the inside out.

Somebody special wrote this for me, its one of the nicest msgs iv ever gotten... it shoulda come up here a long time ago...

"Ur the words that come out easy n im speechless at best.ur star it seems 2shine above the rest,ur the face b4 the cameras,the smile id like 2earn,the closest thing 2 perfect in a hollywood 2burn.Ur the beauty thats deeper than eyes can merely see,closest thing 2perfect,but the farthest thing from me"

Closure - Cheville

Breathe,
Trust,
Bless me,
And her loose,
Climb hard,
Never be seen,
Closed off,
Rescue to free,
And just bless me.
Too side of time,
Your rebirth can’t hurt,
Branch out behind,
The pain.

Closure has come to me,
Myself,
You will never belong,
To me.
Closure has come to me,
Myself,
You will never belong,
To me!

Had to turn,
They doubt,
You’re sting of disease,
Phase you,
Ouch,
You seem this courage,
Go on,
Confusing this soul,
Hold my breathe,
Til you rupture!
Three days a sign,
Your rebirth can’t hurt,
Branch out behind,
The pray.

Closure has come to me,
Myself,
You will never belong,
To me.
Closure has come to me,
Myself,
You will never belong,
To me!

Like a leech,
I hold on,
As if we belonged,
To some,
Precious pure dream,
Cast off,
You see what’s beneath,
Now fail me!
Faulty closure,
Faulty closure,
Faulty closure,
Faulty closure!

Closure has come to me,
Myself,
You will never belong,
To me!
Rahh!

i heard this song, then i read the lyrics and it hit me somewhere way deep down...
i thought id share, to see if anyone cared
and the cow jumped over the moon.

"Your Beautiful" -- James Blunt


My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face
in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel
with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you. . .

Leaving for Lahore early toomorrow morning, well actually, early TODAY in the morning, will fly in six hours actualy, which means ill be getting ready to leave for the airport in three and a half and cause dads flight leaves half an hour before mine will actually LEAVING for the airport in four and half.

Was just in the process of packing, something that normally doesnt bother me (and normally doesnt take longer then half an hour to an hour either) but something that today im not in a mood to do. Just realised that there is so much STUFF - like STUFF bESIdes clothes, that i pack EVERY TIME im jumping down here - whether for a week or a month - its started me thinking that i should just probably just keep extra stuff here... but who DOES that? In fact iv realised that if i was to make a list of the things i have packed/packing there would be more THINGS then clothes... in fac twhy dont i do that right about now (in an attempt to do absolutely ANYTHING but finish my packing)....

So if you have absolutely NOTHING better to do... and i literally mean NOTHING, please read the following list that contains everything im packing in my bags (and we will generally travel from bottom of the bag to the top, starting with the normal things, then the slightly weirder things that we ALL pack, then stuff that no one but me probably takes the time to pack):

1) Pants
2) T-Shirts
3) Dress Shirts
4) Sweaters (its winter)
5) Shalwar kameez I packed while coming here on an afterthought, it was eid after all)
6) Jacket(s)
7) Clean Socks
8) Dirty Socks
9) Underwear
10) The T Shirts I forgot to pack while doing (2)
11) Toiletries:

a. Tooth Brush
b. Tooth Paste (I don’t know why I packed this but I did :P)
c. Razor
d. Extra Razor Blades (AnOTHer thing I don’t know why I packed, its not like my razors will go all dead in under eight days… its kinda like the useless slots that say “Dispose of your Razors Here” on international flights – yeah like really my razor will die in the 12 hrs flight… hmm but I guess im just as bad :P
e. Shaving Cream
f. Shaving Brush
g. Hair Gel
h. Deodorant (hmm I didn’t know that’s how you spell it :P good thing im making this list in word so the numbers come… im learning something saath saath
i. Perfume
j. Hmmmm I think that’s about it… phew that’s a lot of stuff!

12) Camera
13) Extra Batteries
14) Battery Charger
15) Laptop
16) External Hard Drive
17) Optical Mouse
18) DVD’s that Selina gave me to watch and I promised not to lose (both of us knowing that theres NO way thatll happen) BUT her sister was a film major so iv got some really nice classics stacked in there.
19) Everybody was kung foo fightinggggggggg hooooo ya! Hehehe sorry the song just came on :P plus im startinig to run out and I wanna get atLEAST to 20 :P
20) Oo oo oo Phone Charger (I almost REALLY forgot that just packed it)
21) Reading Packages that I know even while packing that im NEVER going to read but still pack.
22) My bathroom slippers (another thing I don’t know why I pack)

Hmmm okay and now that im on my way back, I also have a bunch of things that my moms given me to take back with me… hehehehe she loves her only son :D

23) Glacier Mints (there basically just candies I don’t know why she got me a whole BAG of them :P)
24) An Entire raan that’s been boiled and cooked and seasoned with moms special recipe… the boys back at LUMS are going to have a good time feasting on this!
25) My migraine medication
26) Sunglasses
27) Keys to my room
28) Wallet
29) TICKET!

Now
…
If im forgetting anything… you guys have a little under 4 hours to let me know.
Hahahahahaha
I Love Karachi.

Been in karachi a week now, leaving for lahore early tomorrow morning, was out doing some last minute shopping when i realized that i had been here a week and yet i still hadnt gone to see the ocean.

Sunset, sand and water... and it comes back to me - i truly do love this city.

PS Reminder to self, write out the idea for the killer movie that came and literally hit you upside the head today.