My head is killing me, the world is spinning around and im here sitting in the bloody computer lab of all places. Everything i say is taken in the wrong context, and every feeling that comes from deap inside of me is thrown back into my face in anger. I have said a lot of things, things that many time where meant to inspire anger, things that were inspired from this deap hate and redness i have inside of me. The same redness that makes my muscles constantly tight - this energy that constantly wants to be released - and when these things are thrown back at me i welcome it - it drops me like a stone back to reality - it hits me hard and brings me back to my senses.

But when the things i say are genuine, when the things i say i really feel and really mean and i just need the other person to listen i just need the other person to understand... and THEN when i get it thrown into my face... i really dont no what to do.

I really dont know what to do...

i really dont know what to do anymore...